I don't know if I told the right person(s) about some family matter. I, myself also don't know why out of sudden I said that out. I never told a single person that I will meet he/she damn often ever. Only my not close but super trust worthy friend(s) knows it. I can really put 100% trust in them, I can really find the word in them. That is why we never make empty promise to each other.
Everything seems like fairy tales. We played, we joke, we scream, we shout. Our friendship is almost there except we didn't cry together. Whatever it is I hope I won't influence you when it comes to decision making. I feel like drawing a boarder between us but I can't do that just because of some shit! I will still be there for you when you need me.
When the door is open to welcome you, maybe you should give it a try.