I remained clam and strong. Maybe because it's not the first time? It doesn't really hit my heart the moment i heard, my reaction was "orh . ." . I even continued with my work and stay at home alone. Perhaps all the life&death issues, troubles occurring makes me a stronger person.

9months ago, I break down immediately. I couldn't even tell the truth what's going on. I could only replied "nothing . . " and started ignoring people that continue to find out the truth. The truth will always left unsaid even if the world end. I swear even my cloest friend wouldn't know, I tend to stay far apart. I could only face the clear big walls, starring in the air, hoping that the rain falls to make me feel fresh.

I won't blame on you but I'll forgive you. I hope this sign is a wake up call for you.

I will pray that your return would makes you a better person.